bad day

hari ini adelah hari paling memenyampahkan abad ini...

boleh tak?

boleh tak kalau nak benci ngan projek türverklediung..?
boleh tak kalau nak hanya bekerja dengan tino yang baik hati itu?
boleh tak menyampah dengan diri sendiri kerana sangat slow hari ini?

türverkleidung

*tomorrow i will start on a new project for volkswagen up!i hope it will go well...amin
*saya masak udang masak sos hari ni ...boleh bawak gi kerja esok..suke!tadi saya hanya bawak maggi goreng and jelous bila lihat kc bawak nasi berlaukkan ayam..haha
*this weekend saya takde plan ape2...wah,nak berehatlah..mungkin akan ke braunschweig tuk bershopping(errr..adekah bijak tindakan ku ini?)...
*saya teringin nak makan nasi lemak..saya nak masak nasi lemak la wekend ni...
*saya adalah excited dengan projek baru saya ini..first time buat türverkleidung by myself..saya dapat mengira bahawasanya after this saya akan banyak involve in this part of crash.
*kaki kanan saya macam terseliuh sikit lepas berjoging wekend lepas...saya harap esok ia akan ok..
*saya nak solat dan tido dah ni..esok saya kena bangun awal sbb ade kelas german dan perlu menerangkan pada matthias tentang bauteilen yang saya sudah siap mesh hari ini..

numb

if you love someone..u want to be with him or her most of the time right?or am i not right?i think i was in love one time,i dont want to be with him all the time..at one time it was suffocating..

i think i was in love for the second time..and i want to be with him all the time..but something bad happened between us,but i still want to be with him all the time ...but i can't be with him because it just not right for me to be with him..it was more suffocating

love is hurt..hurt is love ..love hurt..i hate hurt does it mean i hate love?

care

*we had FEM tag in Frankfurt on friday and lasted until today..just come back home..tired n sleepy..will elaborate later

swollen eye

*mata saya membengkak seperti alien semalam..i woke up in the morning,and i can't open my left eye...so i went to the doctor and he said that its from the change of weather...apekah?all my colleges said that maybe i was exhausted and stress about the work..maybe i am...maybe i need some rest..tomorrow i suppose to travel to frankfurt for the malay cuisine at marriott...i hope my eyes will look less swollen tomorrow...

*saya adelah sangat teringin chocolate cake with full of choc..nyum nyum...will bake one maybe on sunday..or maybe tonight...

*i bought haier washing machine last sat and got it delivered yesterday...the maschine shake A LOT when it spin the clothes...it moves about 1/2 meter ok...not to mention kebisingannya...what should i do?did i missed some important instruction about how to assemble it?

*economy crisis really effect us here in europe...there are already many car manufacturer have stop their production line starting last summer...i hope we will not badly affected...today we had our betriebsrat quartal meeting and the boss mention that we already lost like 3 million in nurnberg and had stop some of our production and manufacturing line...ohhhhhh....

*did i mention that tino adelah sangat baik??he even brought me breakfast last saturday...

p/s:i so love the levi's slim jeans that i tried last week,i want it!!i hope they still have my size when i go there tomorrow..

wolfsburg

we went to watched footbal game at the stadium today..my first time to watched football live ..it was so damn cold!!!thank god knutt bring extra butt pillow just for me..i am happy..he is a good boss...we won 3-0..:)
the game was fun..the reff was bias..the players were straight,the announcer was funny...overall..it was fun!i am glad i did went to the game..

deepavali

happy deepavali everybody...
my friend pretty invited me for deepavali celebration today..
she invited her indian friends and haresh..haresh is my kollege..we had a lot of fun..i saw how they do pooja..and it was interesting..i realize,eventhough i am a malaysian and india is one of the biggest population in malaysia..i never truly see deepeavali this close..i am glad i know her..she is a good friend..and to think about it..how come i never really know how chinese and indian celebrate their festival?it is a shame ..for me and most other malaysian...

Where you start is not as important as where you finish.

did i tell u?that saya ade projek sendiri sekarang?maka kerna itulah saya sangatlah busy...mengapa ya?saya rasa saya sangatlah lembab membuat kerja2 saya..selalu saja silap di sana sini..adekah pengaruh penukaran tempat duduk?atau fokus saya makin kurang pada kerja?tapi saya cuba sedaya upaya untuk memberikan yang terbaik..

esok adelah meeting besar saya...saya harap semuanya berjalan lancar..

hari ini saya membuat jamuan kecil sempena probezeitende saya..saya masak nasi beriani yang tak sedap dan makaroni goreng..saya tak puas hati ..tetapi tak mengapalah..yang penting mereka sangatlah sporting..tidak merungut bila terpakse menunggu hampir sejam kerna meeting saya yang lama hari ini..

saya bersyukur saya dapat tino sebagai bos saya...saya banyak buat salah dan agak lembab..tapi dia masih sabar dengan saya...

buat kesekian kalinya..saya mahu katakan..saya cintakan kerja saya...saya tidak kisah bekerja lebih masa...sudah hampir sebulan saya menjadi orang terakhir pulang dan pertama sampai di office...saya bersyukur..lebih baik banyak kerja dari kebosanan....

saya rindulah pada family saya..tak sabar mahu pulang...kami akan ke miri nanti..melawat anyah abang faiz dan si comel akmal..=)

oh ya,shikin menetap dengan saya sekarang....

dan...victor sampai hari ini..=)

takut

1)saya takut dalam gembira
2)lamanya tak update blog ni..
3)shikin stay rumah saya minggu ini..
4)saya dah ngantuk,tapi hausaufgaben tak buat lagi..esok cikgu marah saya camne?tapi saya ade meeting pukul 7 pagi
5)say rindu family sayala...

raya 2008

saya beraya rumah malaysia di berlin ...
tak kesampaian nk sembahyang raya,sampai di masjid,imam sudah baca khutbah..
makan sampai kenyang gila..adoila..
*selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin ya semua*

ramadhan yang sejuk

hemmm....my weekends semenjak puasa ini adalah dipenuhi dengan acara masak memasak dan makan memakan...selepas waktu berbuka la yang pastinya..
weekdays saya pula dipenuhi dengan überstunden melampau,kelas german,hausaufgaben dan kadangkala kemarahan di hati..
izinkan saya membitching pasal projek bentley kami....
hemm..ces,tetiba takde idea la plak...
hemmm......
berkemungkinan kami akan hilang projek juta2 bentley itu kerana masalah2 tertentu..tetapi yang menyakitkan hati saya ialah ketidak efektifan anke menguruskan projek ini...dia adalah kurang terurus orangnya..tensi lah saya apabila saya terpaksa menambah bauteil itu dan ini pada last minute...jika mahukan saya siapkan template,perlulah dia memberikan saya data material yang telah saya minta 2 minggu lepas..sila la kemas kini email untuk melihat samada kunde memberi data tersebut atau tidak..kerja menyamakan material dengan no bauteil adelah kerja remeh yang mengambil masa yang lama yang sepatutnya diberikan kepada praktikant yang tiada kerja untuk dibuat..saya paham,dia juga pasti stress sekarang...tetapi,saya juga stress...aduhla..

untuk bertukar kepada suasana gembira...mak saya telah mengepos baju raya saya!!!saya harap ia sampai dalam keadaan selamat...
saya juga akan bercuti ke cina!!!!saya gembira ni...=)

welcome ramadhan..

ramadhan datang lagi,dan saya gembira.
marilah kita sama2 menjalani ibadah puasa dengan penuh keikhlasan...=)
saya berharap ramdhan kali ini lebih baik dari ramadhan sebelumnya..saya sangat berharap..

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khamis lepas,saya pergi ke rumah peter dan isterinya..bermain2 dengan tim anak lelakinya yang oh sungguhla comel dan bijak..juga mempunyai hemah yang tinggi..kami makan dinner bersama2 dan tim telah menumpah kan air sebelum kami mula makan,kemudian ibunya telah meminta dia masuk ke biliknya selama 5 minit..dan dia patuh tanpa banyak soal..dan kami juga menunggu 5 minit sebelum mula makan...dan pada saya,cara ini adalah baik berbanding memukul atau meninggikan suara pada anak2..ketika makan juga,ibunya selalu menyatakan cara yang baik dan sopan bagi ikutan tim.kemudian apabila masuk masa tidurnya,saya telah diminta untuk membacakan bedtime story for him...i am shy,but i love it..i consider to be a parents is a very challenging task,u have to be a good example for your children..in everything..

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i was in berlin this weekend,we had merdeka celebration at rumah malaysia (embassador's house).we had nasi lemak,roti jala and rendang..nyum nyum..!after melihat rumahnya yang sangatlah besar(ada swimming pool ok!)..saya tetiba mahu menjadi seorang duta..nanti bolehlah saya berjalan merata...bukankah indah begitu?tetapi pasti banyak yang perlu difikirkan...

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kami bermalam di rumah encik tukiren on saturday dan saya telah mengadopt ikan2 gapinya...sekarang saya ade banyak ikan gapi...akuarium saya kelihatan meriah!=)

the team

this is tne CAE team...we (the asian) are obviously klein oder?


*photo taken at monja's wedding party*

yummy sunday lunch

we ate crab today!!!!me cook rendang pedas ketam and preeti(my nachbarin) cook curry crab..they were delicicous..we had it with rice and nan...accompanied with ice mango juice..i can see a big smile in my membukit tummy saying thank you to me...=)

i bake muffin and cake this morning...and this time they turn out pretty delicious...i love them..last week i bake raspberry muffin but i am not satisfied with it..i guess the recipe is not that good(or maybe i was wrong somewhere)


yesterday we went to shop at braunschweig and i met din and y and we had dinner at nice indian restaurant..catched up stories with them and had lots of laugh...i got myself three new gorgeous top from orsay and nice gray pant from zara..also bought cute accessories from karstadt..we came back to wolfsburg around 23 uhr..


I guess my weekend turn out to be the way that i want it to be...relaxing and satisfying.=)

p/s:i really have to lose weight fast,i can not fit to xs anymore..help!!!!

i have to blog about this

QUARTER-LIFE CRISIS(QLC)...

The quarterlife crisis (QLC) is a term applied to the period of life immediately following the major changes of adolescence, usually ranging from the ages of 21 - 30

oh my god!i did not know that this exist..=P

Characteristics of quarter-life crisis may include:

• feeling "not good enough" because one can't find a job that is at one's academic/intellectual level-currently no
• frustration with relationships, the working world, and finding a suitable job or career-jain
• confusion of identity-yes
• insecurity regarding the near future-yes
• insecurity concerning long-term plans, life goals-jain
• insecurity regarding present accomplishments-jain
• re-evaluation of close interpersonal relationships-yes
• disappointment with one's job-no
• nostalgia for university, college, high school or elementary school life-jain
• tendency to hold stronger opinions-yes
• boredom with social interactions-no
• loss of closeness to high school and college friends-yes
• financially-rooted stress (overwhelming college loans, unanticipatedly high cost of living, etc.)-no
• loneliness-YES
• desire to have children--emmmm....definitely,maybe
  
• a sense that everyone is, somehow, doing better than you..no

so,are you under QLC??

P/S:better to have QLC and tackle the problem now rather than having MLC and regret because it was too late..=)
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i walked back with KC today and we discussed about me want to transfer to KL next year,he also want to transfer to Australia(dont know when)

KC:i dont know lo,but at the age of 25 everything seems to change..like everything is so serious...

Me:yo lar,i was always planning ahead from the age of 13..but i planned only until my age is 25
..and now that i am at that age,i don't have plan anymore..and i am kind of lost..

actually yes,it scares me...

China

i was looking at flight ticket back home in december when i found out that one of the cheapest offer is from china airway...hemmmmmmmmmmmmm...do u know that china is one of the country that i LOVE to visit before i turn 50?=P
hemmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....maybe i will make a stop over in China and fly back with air asia which i found quite cheap..hemmm,but..one week is not enough for that huge country...i need at least 2 weeks,but i want to spend time in malaysia too...what should i do?2-3 hr ot from now on?i got 21 days of annual holiday,plus christmas,plus new year,i should get more or less a month holiday...hemmm,should i??but,travel alone in China?hemmmm.....anyone want to join me?

p/s:i will most probably work here nur until next year...so,i guess i should use the chance to travel wisely...
p/s :auni,spain?bilenya?:)

hochzeit party

we attended monja wedding yesterday..and it was A LOT OF FUN!!!!!!!=D

18:00
ok,i wore that polka dot dress,i know most of them will wear black dress but i don't want to waste my money on dress and i am lazy to go shopping(omg,i can not believe this..hehe)
i was worried that i would be menyerlah but then who cares,they will notice me anyway because i am different(and beautiful???)hahahah...
first we came and there were people throwing keramik plate outside of the old restaurant..the old tradition they said..we greet the bride(who looks ravishing in her wedding dress i should say) and groom.kollegen decided to buy ballons with postcard and tied them to the tables and people should fill the postcard in and jot down what they want to do with the bride and groom like go watch movie together,dinner or eat ice cream..and i wrote that they should cook one malay meal with me..so we will see whether the postcard will be picked up by someone..=)later the pelepasan belon ceremony ..i want la to do that on my wedding because they are beautiful...red heart balloons floating in the sky...
then the dinner...the dance,the kiss,the breaking the toilet bowl ceremony,the dance,the kiss..and around 22 uhr,the games..coollness!!the bride n groom test and i can say they pass with flying colours..23:30 the cutting the cake ceremony..the dance the game the kiss the dance..
we went back to wolfsburg at 1:30

i really treasure last night experience..(i even dance on the dance floor ok,it was fun but i never imagine i will do it..hehe)

and oh my god,tino was so cute dancing the quack2 dance and damn!he's married..hehe
he asked me,don't u want to seat there?(pointing at the bride chair)..and i thought at that time,so i said no...and he was surprised,and then i realized that he meant in my life..and i said,yes of course yes,but not now..

i actually don't know anymore what i want...that is..the truth is i enjoy my life here,i learnt a lot..but...there's always but...

p/s:will upload pics later..

kimi wa petto

i watched kimi wa petto again this week,i love matsumoto jun...and i want a pet like him!!...anyone want to be my pet?i will cook for u..:D


p/s:bawal was dead yesterday(found tersepit behind the o2 thingy)...and i felt angry...why they want to play hide and seek in the aquarium????i sometimes felt that there is a conspiracy between the fishes...

wallllleeeeeee....

watch it!u will love it...trust me..=)

Alhamdulillah

*rambut baru saya*
hemmm...Alhamdulillah,i am now confirm as a berechnungs engineer bei meiner Firma..=)
i didn't expect that it will go smoothly and all the compliments that i get boost my confidence a bit..i thought that i am slow..but apparently i am not that slow..hehe
i will wait until 14.10 before i bring some malay food for my colleges..bcos knutt ,matthias,christian and monja are in holiday..
now i can plan my holiday back home...tak sabar...!
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i bought friends for bilis yesterday ..2 of them..the girl said that they should be at least 5 of them in one aquarium because they schutz each other..but when i put bilis friends in my aquarium...bilis seems not excited at all...he still melancholy as before..have i bought the wrong fish family..they look the same to me...but why bilis dont want friend with them..??

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i was at the bus haltestelle when a woman next to me ask the time..i answered and after that she asked me..'what do you eat?why you are so slim?'...and i was like..'err....rice?'.'rice with what?which kind of rice?'.....'errr.....basmati.rice with fleisch...'
that's weird...oder?

probezeitende gespräch

i should have my probezeitende gespräch at 14 uhr today....BUT,anke was sick and she did not came to work today so tino postponed the gespräch since anke ist my betreuerin..for the gespräch,i have to list the positive and negative in my point of view and company view.i dont know what to list.negative,i am slow,still need guidance,communication problem leads to misverständnis...what else hah?positive:i am rajin(?)..i am motivated and love my job ,i am ready to learn new things...i am cute and indah........?????apekah ini???...tapi saya kena angkat bakul oder..if not who will angkat my bakul?the thing is ,during the process of mengangkat bakul..i have to sound professional right?*tekanan*i can not say,i am an asset to the company since i ate less biscuit from our office rack or use my own pen to write..right??

i am not sure if i will have another gespräch by the end of my six months probezeit...i plan to go back to malaysia in dec since my bestfriend getting hitch and my close cousin too.i want to spend time with abah.abah was hospitalize for half day last week because of his blood pressure and i am damn worry about him.but,i can not show it to them because they will get worry that i am worry about them...

i normally do not show how i felt..i have master the technik of playing cool..(yela sangat:P)

The Little Prince

it's been a awhile since i read an interesting book.i saw this book many times before but i always postpone on buying it.when we missed the ausfahrt going to ikea,we end up chilling for a while in hannover and that is when i bought the book.it was a good buy..the book moves and touches me..the journey of the prince in his so called world is refreshing.He makes several profound and idealistic points about life and human nature..i simply love it.


"On ne voit bien qu'avec le cœur, l'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux." (One can't see well except with the heart, the essential is invisible to the eyes)

it is too much work

..and i dont have time to edit the cute elefante template..and i end up use this 'basic no need to edit anything' template...boring...
it's almost eleven now and my eyes are very heavy already..i need my sweet smell blanket and goose feather pillow now...*yawn*
will change to 'hippy yo i am cool' template when i have extra time..nite nite!

skin ku gila

life is full of uncertainty...certainty is something that you can not get easily..think about the future but dont forget the presence...without presence there will not be future...

cute but complicated

saya sebenarnya cam tertarik ngn template ni...tp dia cam kecik n poyo(??)
i cut my hair again last week(nanti saya pos gamba terbaru,hr ni cam penat..)..auni came to my place and we had a lot of fun together..
we had..

1)thai massage (mix feeling about this..to be sure,i dont like her tea..erk,takde kaitan oder?)
2)itik di braunschweig
3)the same vodoo singlet..don't u dare play with us ok..we can vodoo u....(hahahaha..gelak syaaiton)
4)the same hair cut which is cute ..credit to auni...she was begitu beria mencari design rambut yg cute..sehinggakan aku pon terpengaruh skali...auni,anke siap cam..bagus la awak..rambut dh pendek..sebab today aircon at office rosak and we all kelupuran kepanasan...
5)fishes!!!horraayy!!my aquarium have 10 fishes already..they are gorgeous and cute...thanks kakak auni..ikan2 mu kebuluran dan merinduimu....=(
6)oreo cheese cake yg enak!!!

i hate farewell,i did not realize this..until today victor said to me that i am easily piss this week...now i know why,i can not handle farewell very well..
i remember...

merajuk/irritated with su hingga dia lari ke tasik???(sorry su)
merajuk/irritated with auni kerna bende bodoh with kak siti(sorry auni)
merajuk/irritated with nena because emm,dh lupa
merajuk/irritated with victor because he said i dont pay atention at meeting..(memangla kan)


yes,i am a bad person...i am easily piss for no reason when i know the person that i love n like will leave me because i am bad at farewell...

spanish flea

'its a damn cold night,trying to figure out this life...wont u take me by the hand take me somewhere new,dont know who u r,but i'm with u'....

-i am into jazz right now..
-i realize that i am not a good cook ..esp when it come to western foods..
-i worked on cool bentley türverkleidung project last week...i love my job,i guess i said this so many times already..=P
-we went to hannover to chill on sat...and i got a cute blue dress to wear for the jazz festival
-i really gonna miss him ...badly.. when he fly back..
-i am someone who learn from my lesson,i dont judge before i learn...
-i am worry about something but i dont know what to do about it..
-ahja,we watched spirited away today when i smell something burned ..so i rushed to the kitchen to see if i forgot to turn off my dapur..but no,everything was in ordnung ..so i asked him whether he smells it...he said maybe its from my comp,and i was like..i dont think so..because the smell is something from the heissplatte.i know because i once burnt my kitchen remember..huhu..
we searched for the source of the smell when we realize that my neighbour (downstair) kitchen was smoking...so i asked him,we should warn the neighbour right?so we went down and i knocked the wrong door ..and the nenek(she is a nice nenek,she once get my parcel for me)..knocked some other neighbour and the other neighbour broke in the house and switch off the plate..the house was full with smoke..luckily nothing burnt...because none of us know the firework number..so people,please be carefull ok!
=)

dont judge me,because i dont judge you

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my kollegin itu adelah pelik...saya tak berapa suka dia..atau adekah saya yang pelik?
berschulung dengannya membuatkan saya stress dan mahu terbang pulang balik ke malaysia...dia baru bekerja sehari dan sebelum ini dia bekerja sebagai pembantu di klinik,mengapa dia mahu tunjuk hebat dan bercerita itu ini tentang kami di wolfsburg pada rakan sekerja di russelsheim sedangkan dia tidak tahu menahu?adekah 13 org pekerja di wolfsburg tiba2 boleh menjadi 18 orang hanya kerana dia tidak tahu mengira?argh..saya stress dibuatnya....saya tinggal di frankfurt 6 bulan,manekah mungkin saya tidak tahu yang anda tidak perlu menaiki zug dari frankfurt main (tief) ke frankfurt main??bagaimana mahu membina zug jika jaraknya hanya setingkat lif??stress..saya stress....

sekarang saya hanya mahu menemani emak yang saya sangat sayang dengan sepenuh hati saya...

jika tidak memikirkan mahu membantu keluarga ,saya mahu pulang sekarang juga...sekarang!!...saya buat masa ini benci berdinner dengan germans yang memenatkan otak saya....saya benci...=(

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when it come to relationship...i surrrender with plain white big flag...

i am

-always attracted (for some reason which is mysterious to me)..to a wrong guy ..

-always push away someone who can be categorized as a not wrong guy..

and wrong guy always attracted to me (ayat perasan)

jadinya...?

am i?

i finished working at 19:40 today..i thought i am not the last one in our office,but actually i was.i was so hypnotized with the model that i did not notice how times fly by very quickly.i also felt a bit bersalah because i made some mistakes with yesterday model and i end up the whole day correcting the model back..stupid aquivalencce node..!i suppose tino already planed the schedule with the work for me,so today he gave me new model at 17pm and he want to present it at 10 tomorrow...i half finished it today,supppose tomorrow i will rush to do the karosserie part for the sitzt...hemm.....i love my job..i think i am crazy...huhu


i want to build my brand new regal but mengetuk2 20 paku at 23 is absolutely not a good thing right??so i guess the regal have to wait until tomorrow..
when i look back at the picture,i think i've gained some weight...what happened??arghh,saiko...
it have been weeks since i went swimming...maybe that is why...hemmm....

p/s:heute i realized that when u have been doing meshing for a long time,u can be hypnotized with the rectangular that u can see the angle in two dimension....weird weird....erkk,do i sound like a nerd??huhuhu
p/s 2:i am waiting ...

euro 2008

i missed the first game because i went shopping for summer clothes in hannover.i love watching german played yesterday,mainly because ballack was there..hehe..i am rooting for him and germany since his team lost to manchester and i am menghormati and menjiwai(???) tempat ku menetap..(apekah??)how can i not,our abteilung have our own euro 2008 site !!

oh,i got my red sofa and black tisch today...the table was a bit damage..i am not satisfied,but i am so lazy to return them back to ikea.i dont have a car..i dont want to carry the table to ikea which is like 1hr from my place..so ,i just end up building it.

we went to herren häusen gärten in hannover..it was beautiful..and i asked one stupid q..q that i should not ask...because it does not matter anyway...

ansa schulung

i was at ingolstadt the past 3 days..i attended ansa schulung given by ansa staff.it was cool,informative,interesting and some part boring.it was my first schulung.i am new with the software and i actually used it only for a month.i learnt a lot and surprisingly next week i will also go for another software schulung.this time medina.....anke told me today that it was quit rare for a new staff to be sent for a schulung like that.i am honoured.she said that for one person it can cost up to 1000 euro...ok..ok...i will be a good girl and do my job with my all heart....

i stayed at one hotel near edag and to my surprise,my college who work in wolfsburg also stay there(he works 3 days in ingolstadt and 2 days in wolfsburg)..so after the schulung we went dinner together...we visited audi and at that time what come into my mind is automotive industry is sure a huge business.....

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we had a sommerfest today...it was fun and the weather was quit nice ...in ingolstadt it was raining on the day i went back but here...the sun shine can blind u..huhuhu


regarding work....why is tino super clever,super fast and extremely kind?i wish i can be like him in these few years .... martin is in a holiday....i miss his glance everytime i get coffee..*erk*


ohh...i am looking forward to this weekend.we will do some travel...i hope it will be fun..=)

saya happy

oh..smalam adelah hr yang sangatlah mengecewakan..i felt like crying...
i had not much to do the whole week last week and it continued until yesterday and ich habe gestern die nase voll..it was really frustrating...
the openfoam calculation came back imperfect last week and anke send them back to vw and we have to wait ..again..
and when it arrived yesterday,i directly did the documentation but the paraview file run some crazy calculation and can not show the animation.i told anke this and she rerun the whole thing and it was extremely dissapointing...
i had keine lust mehr to wait and read the documentation,so i went back home at 3pm!!!
i dont felt right doing that but i really felt frustrated and langsam bose...blame the hormon but still it suck when u dont have work to do.i felt incompetence and depress.anke said that it was normal like that,she dont have anything to do for 3 months at her old firma...i really can not imagine that...
so today when i woke up,i dont know what to feel..
when i arrived,anke told me..azura,now things will change for you.tino ,me and knutt sat together yesterday and we arranged you to work now under tino and did crash..i was like,ok.. thank you,ich freu mich..=)
so i finished the openfoam documentation and anke sent them to the kunde today,and tino came after luch with a bunch of information.i have learn the crash system today and i will handle a part of his project..since he will have his holiday in two weeks,he seems to rush everything into this small brain of mine..i dont have anything to complain...i am happy...!today me n him are the last person who left our office..things really can change in one day dont they???

from now on,i will handle openfoam project alone and i will unterstutz tino with sitzt crash..apart from that,i will unterstuzt monja with ansa..so i guess i have many things to learn and i am happy because i have the opportunity to learn from the best...alhamdulillah...=)

i love my weekend

on sat we went to autostadt..(endlich) and i bought jahreskarte for it..well,i dont think it is a bad investment..i hope by the end of this year or next year,i can bring my family here..amin amin.
it was fun,he knows a lot about cars and their history so it was an informative trip..beside,i can get to see the outcome of my meshing and bastling...it was so damn cool...=).the most awesome presentation is from audi...go and check them out if u visit autostadt wolfsburg.
we planned to see ballet after that,but walking inside the autostadt for five hours really emptied our energy to zero..so we decide to check the factory outlet instead..(huhu)i bought a pair of sunglasses since the old one kaputt already...*kcing*

oh,about work..last week was extremely ruhig for me.anke was busy with the fußgangerschutz project and that leave me to hanging out with my favorite but boring friend openfoam docu .but this week should be more interesting since i get to change the recht of calculation to mine!!!
i want to learn more,i want to wachseln more and i want to do it fast...
franz leave us this week,he have been stolen by vw...
that reminds me to buy unix book from amazon...

i hope my perabot from ikea will arrive safe and sound next week...*kcing*kcing*

oklah...

huhu..kononnya after ade internet ..akan rajin nk menulis..hemm....

first of all..saya dah mula bekerja sebagai berechnungingenieurin di wolfsburg...
this is a new life for me..
first visitenkarte with my name and title on it..
first own private wohnung with my own bedroom and living room..
first payment hasil titik peluh belajar..
first peti ais to begin with..huhu

to tell the truth,this first month of work was very challenging for me..
i mengikat perut and very careful spending the balance money before getting paid in the middle of the month..
i felt extremely slow when i did my work..*tertekan*
i dont talk much since i felt intimidated with my betreuerin...
i have so many things to buy but have to do the pro and cons list for every single thing...*sigh*

but...
the first weekend
i had kak ina,liza,mat and akashah to spend with
adong minim n yiko helped me with the wardrobe
f helped me with moving

the second weekend
fatin kaklong and judin helped me moving my things from bingen to wolfsburg

the third weekend..
wolfsburger had a blast bbq!!

the fourth weekend..
nena came and we had so much fun together...not forget all the bingeners who melayan my bihun tomyam


this weekend....??let see..

Alhamdulillah...

i called german embassy today...and guess what?my visa is ready to be picked *up..yuhu!alhamdulillah...no more runsing di hati..problem one(solved)

*mencari rumah di wolfsbug..yet to be solved

*membuat kenduri kesyukuran....(half way solved)
-empunya blog nk buat kenduri kesyukuran on friday ,jemputla datang..tp kecil kecilan sajala..janganla mengharap yg grand,,huhu
-makanan sudah diorder,tinggal kuih muih pemanis mulut..

*settlekan translation auni..will be solved tomorrow..

*alhamdulillah again..hopefully sume berjalan lancar..banyak bende nk disettlekan bila sampai german nanti...

*****

Are we good because we are good, or are we good because temptation never tried us?

I know, for a fact, that I am good only because for a long while, I never let temptation get to me. And when it did, I know full well that I have been weighed, I have been measured, and without any doubt.. I have been found wanting. And all that is left now is picking up the pieces, wishing it never happened but not having much to hold on to but regret.

Blessed are the hearts that can bend; they shall never be broken: Albert Camus

I've Picked this up somewhere..

election...

well well....shocking results...

things happened...all parties,the gov,the opposition,the rakyat did not expected this...

i am very interested with 08 election,i love to see my nation and beloved country grows..we are still learning,a process that should be respect..all of us should open our mind and learn ...

the government should learn that :

-people saw how our country develop and there are various aspect that they did not satisfied with..
-talk with no action is not always work,especially with rakyat yang makin pandai menilai...
-mengapa negeri2 yang kaya dan besar?kerana penduduk di sana sudah pandai menilai dan tidak mudah terpedaya dengan media massa...
-time change,rakyat need fresh faces with fresh idea and energy..
-jangan bergolak dalam parti,pilih calon yang sesuai,jangan terlalu yakin dan buatlah kerja dengan baik ...

the new ruler should learn :

-rakyat mahu janji2 mu ditunaikan jika mahu bertakhta lama.
-adalah idak mudah mahu memajukan dan membahagiakan sebuah rumah,inikan pula sebuah negeri..
-i dont blame DAP if they want to put other races in front in their agenda....BUT,beware lah wahai PKR dan PAS..jangan sampai kaum mu sendiri merana...dua parti inilah yang akan membela nasib rakyat yang cube memberi peluang pada nafas baru...harapnya nafas baru itu tidak berbau longkang...

i am gespannt to see how things will work out for these few states..including mine...i love my country and my people..please just embrace this changes with calmness ....learn ..and you will know....

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qatar airways...

saya dah sampai malaysia..!!this is my first time flying with qatar airways...the service??..suck bigtime....ade kah patut:

1)pramugari melanggar kaki ku dengan troli...pertanyaan rakan pramugara...is the trolley ok??......adekah itu funny?adekah anda ingat trolley itu dr bulu angsa dan kaki ku dari getah sekerap????

2) Me:can i have some water PLEASE?
10 minutes later..
I went to the back for again asking for some drink which i did not get ..
pramugari:oh...please wait a moment,we will serve the dinner in a few minutes..(which was like 13 minutes)...

3)menanya orang mahu minum tea or coffee dengan nada mahu makan budak

4)memburukkan negara sendiri pada penumpang yang bertanya...apekah??

although the service was bad ,the trip was considered fun since i sat next to a nice german girl from frankfurt to kuwait and one nice indon boy who live in germany from kuwait to kl..
they both asked for my mail add and want to keep in touch..on my way back from kl to ipoh,there was one journalist from pakistan who also exchanged some interesting conversation with me and in the end asked for my number...well well...did i wear a banner saying 'talk to me,i don't bite' on my forehead on that day??

i believe people should sometimes talk to strangers...


oh ya,saya dengan mengadanya telah menerima ajakan mercedez malaysia for an interview session next week...i really like to confuse myself am i??

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i am back

bismillah...
hemmm...obviously,its been ages since i pour myself out in this blog...a lot of changes occured ..

*after going up and down in this feeling building of mine...i finally can't wait to start over and start earning money on my own..
*had a problem with working permit and have to fly back to malaysia to apply a new one..
*will most probably fly back home for a month on 27th feb 08...
*thank you edag and especially mr knutt (the bear..=P) for wanting to hire this childish girl...
*will move to wolfsburg by april...if you are in the area..please feel free to stop by at my place.
*thanks to everyone who wish me well and always there when i needed them the most..i love you all...
*for some people who dont know it yet,i dont ware my scarf anymore nowadays...so dont pengsan when you see me..thanks!(it will save me a lot of time to send u to hospital)